Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep

When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams

When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink

Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all

Uh, developin' bad habits

first hit I ever took was like magic

Ran out so I had to get more

every night blowin' smoke out the bathroom window

Tryna hide the smell from my parents

but my blank stare made my usage apparent

Pipe and a lighter stuffed in a shoebox

in the backyard, got a gram and some moon rocks

Who would've thought that I would try opiates?

Old manager had copious amounts

Homies around me doin' cocaine

rubbin' all the extra dust on the inside of they mouth

Fans at the show, they offerin' me substance

take it and give it to my security guards

They smokin' it outside of the hotel

trippin', I guess it ain't really weed at all

Hittin' my vape on a plane, I'm high every day

stress from the newfound fame

It feel like holes in my brain formin'

years spent runnin' from the pain

Can't think straight, don't stop

try another strain, doin' it just to maintain

What do you gain? Staying up all night tweaking

Roll it up, breakin' down again, again

Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep

When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams

When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink

Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye

I take the fall without a second thought

don't care if I survive

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye

I take the fall without a second thought

don't care if I survive

I'll risk it all

I'll risk it all chasing that first hit

or something to quench my thirst with

Started drinking over the pandemic more heavily

nicotine with the bottle so heavily

Beer, malt liquor, whiskey

tequila in the freezer, celebrate for no reason

Wake up feelin' like shit, then do it again

homie notified he losin' a friend

Overdosed on them pills laced with fent

we were buyin' so many drugs, we barely made rent

Experiment with them shrooms and the acid

my homie fried himself, he never came back

Only thing keepin' me sane was making tracks

writin' raps I didn't know would earn me plaques

Smokin' until both my lungs turned black

blowin' up saved me from dying on crack

I lose sleep thinking about that

what if I had died before I could do great things?

I cannot forgive myself, my pipe on the shelf

clean and unused, paying my dues

To this day I wouldn't change a thing

everything I've been through's sacred

Everyday faded, a kid extractin' the love from the hatred

And because of that I made it

Late at night, I toss and turn and cannot go to sleep

When I finally close my eyes, I have bad dreams

When I wake up in the morning and I haven't slept a wink

Try to drown all of my feelings in a drink

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye

I take the fall without a second thought

don't care if I survive

I'll risk it all to feel alive, leave without saying goodbye

I take the fall without a second thought

don't care if I survive

I'll risk it all