There are some good days

When I don't think of you

I make it through the morning

It's like I'm pulling through

But then there are the bad days

Days filled with yearning

Endless haunted nights

Bleed into restless mornings

The heartbreak rises

It comes in waves

I count the hours

A way to manage it

Now I just kill time walking around

But then those are the breaks

I've lost a part of myself

All good things must come to an end

But it hurts for me to know

That I have lost a friend

And in my grieving, I spin a snow storm

Waiting for your word but it does not come

I'm trapped in a moment that I just can't get out of

Like the dolphin in the Thames we saw from your window

The last time I saw you, you were wearing my trainers

You gave me back a bag filled with my things

I hold it together but outside the Mayflower

I burst into tears

I still have questions

Was it not real for you?

But I know the answer

Because you're not here

If it was true love then why did you not fight for me?

But then those are the breaks

I have lost a part of myself

All good things must come to an end

But it hurts for me to know

That I have lost a friend

So I must make myself forget

What we shared

The only picture I kept

Was the one of you walking away

But then those are the breaks

I know I'm not at my best

So back in the ocean

We both will go

But it hurts for me to know

That I have lost a friend