I used to blame God for everything man did to me
I would curse the sky for watching silently

I couldn't speak of what you did
Bit my tongue, now I'm biting the bullet
We locked eyes as I begged
Nothing could change your mind
I saw evil take a man
For a moment, your eyes turned red
All my strength didn't mean a damn
But Lord knows I tried

I used to blame God for everything man did to me
I would curse the sky for watching silently
I used to blame God for everything I did to myself
Just to feel clean again

When it was over, I said I was scared
"Why did you do that? Were you even there?
Do you still love me if I didn't like it? "
You stayed quiet
Promise me you won't do it again
There's no world in which I could win
The silence was loud as you pulled me in
My words meant nothing

I used to blame God for everything man did to me
I would curse the sky for watching silently
I used to blame God for everything I did to myself
Just to feel clean again
I used to blame God for everything man did to me
But it wasn't His crime, maybe He was begging with me
I used to blame God for everything I did to myself
But it was never my sin to wash away